Tuesday, February 16, 2010


I know there aren't very many people that read this blog of mine. But I hope that I get some feedback from this.

As you should all know, Shaun and I are not goether anymore and he has moved on. He has a girlfriend now that makes him so happy. I really am happy for him. It's a little difficult being his friend. Seeing him with someone else makes me miss him and it sometimes makes me feel lonely.

Another reason why I'm feeling this way is that I am alone down here. The rest of the family is up in Logan or back home in Lake Point. It was good when Vanessa was here.

I really don't know why to do about the whole thing. I really want to move on but there is no one really to move on with. I've had some pretty rough times the past 7 months when it comes to dating. I've been rejected twice, stood up twice and I've only been on 3 dates. The first of the 3 dates happened to be the worst date ever.

I know that I'm only 18 but I feel like it's been ages since I've been with a guy. I really don't know what to do. I see all my friends are getting into relationships or getting engaged and I just think of when it'll be my turn. I guess I just need to be patient. I honestly don't know how Phil can do it (sorry Phil). Anyway, if you have any advice, please feel free to share it with me.


Gayle J. Randall said...

Dear Emily:
(1)I love reading your blog
(2)Look at what happened to Shaun because he met you. His life changed forever. Not many people can say that. I think you're very mature to be happy for him now that he's found another girlfriend.
(3)Loneliness and homesickness can be a big part of life at college, but you can learn so much about being empathetic to others who feel like that, too. Now you know how to help someone who's homesick
(4)We spend our whole lives learning to be patient. You're starting now and it's never fun. Trust in the Lord's timing for you. There is someone out there for you--you just haven't met him yet (or he hasn't realized it yet). Enjoy making friends and have a good time at college just having fun with lots of people. It's the one time in your life you're only responsible for one person--enjoy it--it won't come again. Don't compare your situation with that of others. Heavenly Father has his own plan for you. Relax and let the Spirit teach you what it is.
Finally, all that you're feeling is normal, and if you could get a straight answer from every college student out there, they would all admit to feeling the same way at some time or another. (Those of us who are older have all been there and we do remember how it is, believe it or not.) We love you! Take one day at a time and make each day better than the last. You can do it! Love, Aunt Gayle

Kaye said...

Emily, I think you're missing out on what is the very best part of being away at college, and that is lots and lots of time to do what YOU want to do and work on the things YOU want to improve and just focus on YOU! I miss that so much, and you never get that time back. Don't worry too much about finding a guy. That will happen when it's time. Focus right now on enjoying some time just for you. You can improve some skills you already have and work on developing qualities that you admire in others and take some time to figure out who you are and what you want. I know it's hard sometimes to be lonely, but you're not always lonely when you're alone. If you make yourself the best girl you can be, the boys will come when the time is right, and until then, have fun with the girls or by yourself. You're never in better company than when you are with some fabulous women, and that includes yourself.